And it really is weird, but strangely pro-active, for me to be practising my writing as if there is an audience. I guess that's what all writing is at the end of the day, and I cant imagine what form writing would take if you wrote without an intended/imagined receiver.

I reckon i'd just feel there was no point, but maybe I should try it. Find value in things just for me, rather than trying to deliver to others all the time.